I had been 80 for awhile. I didn't know how long. I know I documented it somewhere in an earlier blog, & it's a good thing. Because I just can't remember.
Every day was kind of the same; I'd log in & do my dailies. I'd organize my shit. I'd log out. Sometimes Phil logged on with his Death Knight & so we did run Strat once & that was fun. But overall it just felt like getting old.
I never had a problem with playing EQ by myself. I ended up in good guilds, & then the guilds ultimately broke up due to infighting, & I'd have a smattering of friends I'd made ingame that I'd never met or spoken to IRL, & that was fine.
I couldn't really see doing that again, somehow. I guess because the caliber of people who played EQ was so much higher, intelligence & maturitywise, than the troubled, aggro nerds in WoW. Just about every person you ever met in EQ was of normal intelligence & was an adult; it wasn't utterly dumbed down like WoW is.
WoW has managed to provide entertainment for all walks of mind, from the organized & aggressively intelligent to the drooling cretins who are probably going to take over the world purely by accidental proliferation. But I digress.
The truth is, I enjoy playing Tamastara. I'm not really interested in playing a Death Knight on Khaz Modan. It's not necessarily even an Alliance - Horde thing. I think I really just want to play Tamastara. I can vacation on other toons for periods of time, but eventually I'll just want to go back to Tamastara.
I never thought that I would start caring about being part of a herd, in a stupid game or otherwise. I'm not sure how to feel about that. But then who cares about feelings.
If I didn't play WoW any more, imagine everything else I'd be doing with my life. Or not. Maybe my life has already been ruined, & even if I managed to get clean & to get through rehab, I would still never do anything with myself. I don't think WoW is what killed me though. WoW is just a medium.
I also joined a PUG Vault of whatever. I had no idea how the fights went. I died to fuckin' rocks like 3 for 3. But at least I knew better for later.